6 Nov

I Am Dead But Still Breathing…

I am numb but it still hurts…

I am strong but have no power…

I am sane but hallucinating…

I am not alone but still lonely…

I am walking but have no direction…

I am aware but in denial…

I am well but still ill…

I am composed but so furious…

This is the most devastating part of my life. Where my soul mate, my best friend, my player 1, my worst enemy, my male counterpart, my everything and regardless how corny people would say it is, my reason for living, was shot dead.

Everyone tells me to let go. But those who have known me and my husband offered not words but hugs and silence because they knew. They knew what kind of relationship my husband and I had and that it is not something that I can easily forget. Eleven years worth of bond snapped by one bullet.

Maku, I wish you can read this. You have always been my proofreader before I publish a post. I love you so much. I miss you…

Goodbyes hurt when the story is not finished but the book has been closed…

petronio de guzman rosales jr

The love we had can never be matched… Our relationship exceeded what most people had… I will never stop loving you…

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